Introducing Myself

Accountability.  It is the one thing I feel like I have lacked for so long.  Because when it comes to my weight, the only person I am truly accountable to is myself.  And when you feel like you aren’t worth very much as it is, why be accountable?  I am morbidly obese.  There…I said it.  Well, I typed it.  But I typed it for the world to read.  I am 28 (almost 29) and I run the risk of not seeing my son graduate high school.  I am on blood pressue medication.  I live in fear of my own health and body.  Or at least, I used to.  On Monday January 14, 2013 I made the decision to do something about my health.  I made the choice to start believing in myself and make the change that needs to happen.  I want to be there for my son as he gets older.  I want another baby someday.  But in order to reach those goals, I cannot continue to live like I am living.  So I joined Weight Watchers and attended my first meeting last Thursday.  And now, I am going to blog about my experiences.  I am going to be honest in hopes that it keeps me on track.  And plus, I need the encouragement.  I am not one of those people who can do it on their own-I need LOTS of praise.  So yes, this is a selfish blog but I don’t care.  Because when it comes to my health, I need to be a lot more selfish. 

So here it is…the dreaded pictures.  I am taking one from the front and (*GULP*) the side.  I have NEVER liked being photographed from the side.  I don’t like seeing how far I stick out.  But, again it goes back to being accountable.  I am not brave enough to take pictures in a sports bra and yoga pants like they do on Biggest Loser so this will have to do. 

Thanks to anyone who reads this blog and shares your stories or support.  Even words from strangers mean a lot.